Here are a couple of my poems.  They are very personal...that's why I'm out on the limb.  Basically if you reply please remember the rule: If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all!  That goes for all my posts.  I don't handle criticism well.  Don't be fake though and just say nice things because.  I like honesty.  Anyway................



A Love Letter To Pain.

first a tingling
then an ache
you catch my breath
you torture me
and I lust for you
sore and wounded
I bleed for you forever



Under The Stairs.

in the darkness
under the stairs
is where you played
your cruel game
I'll go there again
and torture myself
because you made me
feel like I deserve it

Wow, it's been a long time since I've written anything here.  Pretty sure I have like hardly any posts on here (I'll have to check that in a sec).  I just had my birthday and now Christmas is right around the corner.  I finished my Christmas shopping tonight, finally!  I can't wait for the holidays to be over to be honest.  I don't really like spending time with my dysfunctional family.  I'm looking forward to a new year though.  Hopefully next year will be better than this one.  I have a good feeling it will.


Anyway, really I don't have anything worth saying unless I really get into my private life, and I don't want to do that here, *is scared*.

I just wanted to say hello to all my LJ friends and wish you all happy holidays.

Much love,
Leigh-Anne

Took this pic of Pete in January.  Man I love this dude!

So it's 4:20 in the morning and I'm still awake.  This is the norm for me.  I have nothing even close to resembling a normal life.  I'm having this debate with myself as to whether I should use my LJ as a for real journal.  Cause then people would actually read it, and pretty much everyone I know already thinks I'm pretty damn weird, I'm not sure if I want strangers feeling the same.  Although....strangers wouldn't ever meet me probably, so maybe you people are the ones I SHOULD be talking to.  You can judge all you want but I would never actually know you so maybe it wouldn't hurt so much.  There ARE certain LJ friends that I'd care somewhat what they think though........HUGE DILEMMA HERE!  I mean wouldn't it be nice to be able to really put my thoughts out there.  It's got to be better than keeping them all bottled up right? Hmmm....*is scared*

*is going out on a limb*

notes in red
spell out my pain
in colour
it's vibrant  angry
BEAUTIFUL
HORRIBLE
sorry I'm not your good little girl anymore
my secret is that I never was

Oh god, please don't tear me apart!  I can't handle it!

I have to post this pic from my Toronto HCT show.  I've seen the HCT three times now!  I even went to Chicago to see my boys in their hometown.  I've seen them five times now, yay!  Can you say obsessed?   Ha ha ha!

So it's Saturday night and I'm all alone.  I figured now is as good a time as any to start actually doing something with my livejournal, since up until now I've just used it as a portal to get to slash, ha ha ha!  So tonight I'm going to attempt to post AND customize!  Ha ha, we'll see how THAT turns out!  Wish me luck, me and computers don't get along so well!